oh the emotions of studying abroad

So, a few posts ago, I said I loved it here so much I want to come back as a post grad. And, before that I wanted to stay for not only the year but for the next 2 or 3 and graduate as an undergrad from here. After reading week, I was ready to come home. In fact, I was counting down the days. And now... two weeks after starting to count days, I want to stay. I am getting sad that this is almost over. I will be home in 3 weeks. I am looking forward to Christmas in Chicago and seeing my family, but I love St. Andrews. Yesterday, I almost cried becasue I was not with my family for Thanksgiving and even during Raisin I was like, okay I am done with this place, time to move on to the next thing, and today I want to stay here longer. What a weird roller-coaster I am on!